general Celebrity, Fame and Fear CW: references to sexual assault and suicideWhen I was about 20, I remember telling someone, "I don't like celebrities". I didn't mean specific ones, of course. Nor did I really mean I disliked
Nostalgia for A Time You Hated It's very easy for me to separate my life into "acts", for lack of a better term.Before puberty, I sometimes thought about "boys" and "girls", but mostly just lived my life, with
warstories The Only Undersea Battle, Ever Watch a submarine movie, and in the final act you will almost always hear dramatic (or sad) music play while a submarine's torpedo strikes another submarine's hull, with dramatic and sudden results. It's
transition You Always Talk About Trans Stuff It's been years since I began transitioning. Arguably, ignoring the fact that it's an ongoing process and doesn't really "end", it kinda has for me. At least most of the time. I rarely
transition Self-Analysis Through Fashion Well that's quite a title, but I assure you it makes sense. You see, over the process of transitioning, I went through a lot of style changers. Some prompted by my changing body,
"Ivy Bells" This is part of a series of articles which are re-tellings of military (mostly naval) disasters, battles or events that have always fascinated me. To write these stories I have worked off numerous
transition Normalisation, Dating and Fetishisation CW: small amounts of transphobia, and references to chasers and surgeryWomen's bodies are deeply and constantly sexualised. We're shown through media and general treatment that how we look is more important than what
warstories Live Bait This is part of a series of articles which are re-tellings of military (mostly naval) disasters, battles or events that have always fascinated me. To write these stories I have worked off numerous
general Patreon, Podcast and Regular Content A long time ago, in my previous regeneration, I used to write, and I used to podcast. I mean, I did a whole lot of other things too, like making films and having
transition Looking Back For the last little while I've been meaning to write more transition-related stuff here on my blog. The problem is, like most transition blogs, they tend to taper off after a while. At
transition Three Years Three years ago today, I began hormone therapy. With physical changes came social ones, which means it's been a bizarre and eye-opening journey into personal comfort, but also into learning a lot about
transition Devil & Angel When I was young, I had two imaginary friends... sort of. I didn't believe they were real, of course. I had become fixated with the idea of the devil and angel on your
transition 111 Things About My Transition On twitter, I posted that for every like a post received, I'd mention some trivia related to my transition. I got far more likes than I was able to easily come with trivia,
transition Fear The other day a friend sent me a casual message, inviting me to go with them to an event. I read the message, saw what the event was and my heart began to
transition What Now? For two years (and change) there has always been Something Else To Do. At the beginning, it was utterly terrifying things, such as talking to doctors, coming out publicly, taking meds to completely
transition Two Years of HRT If you ask a medical professional about feminising hormone therapy, the most helpful response you get seems to be a furrowed brow followed by, "Look, we generally consider it to be a
transition "Was it everything you hoped?" One of the most common questions I get asked by people I come out to is some variation on "what's it like being trans?". Of course, that's a really tough question
transition Body Awareness and Transitioning There's a joke going around at the moment on twitter, similar to other observational jokes I've seen for a while, but done particularly well: Male Writers Writing Female Characters: “Cassandra woke up to
transition Compliments, Consent & Relationships I've been thinking about the complicated nature of relationships. And for a moment forget the "relationship = partner / girlfriend / boyfriend" thing. I mean relationships as in the way to define how we
transition Gender-Coded Behaviour Every trans person had their own ways of coping before they transition. Some have "always" shown behaviour somewhat reflective of their true gender identity. I, on the other hand, got so
transition Social Anxiety My own social anxiety never made much sense to me. It was so specific and so seemingly-random (pro-tip: it wasn't random; it was when I was treated in a gendered way or segregated
transition Acceptance Day A year ago, I wrote this facebook post (slightly modified for re-posting here)... 16 September, 2016 A year ago today, I broke down crying. It was in the morning. I had gotten up
transition Shoulda Known One of the interesting discussions I've had over drinks with lots of other trans people is the one that begins this way: "I have no idea how I didn't figure it out
transition Hey, Baby CW: Public attention from creepy dudes. Most of my transition blog posts have been either general observations about an aspect of transitioning, or specific discussions of experiences I've had. This is... half way
transition "So maybe I wasn't that ugly..." I used to passionately detest the way I looked. I grew a beard and kept it from about age 21 until right before I began transitioning, and GOD I hated it. On myself,
